spring 2025 | wip bulletin
spring newsletter
Dear Friends and Family,
I'd like to share my latest completed project with you. This was a custom Primary Suite remodel, for a return client of ours. All of the millwork panels, the closet, and even some of the furniture pieces were completely custom fabricated. There were complex details and precise sequencing involved to make this come together. My role was to aid the initial design process and drawings, then execute as Project Manager / Site Superintendent.
The right team really does make a difference. I am proud of how my crews showed up for this one. I learn more each day, about construction means and methods, communication, leadership, creating space, rising up to challenges, and grace.
I've attached the Final Photo Report, and one "before" photo for reference. All photos taken and edited by me.
Both life and healing are non-linear. When we take our own humanness for granted, when we carry burdens of expectation or control, or when we forget just how fragile and just how strong we can be simultaneously -- we may end up instead prolonging the discomfort that is actually a natural part of life. The only thing in our control is the way we learn to meet it all. Finding our own center of gravity while being in relation to others. Picking up tools along the way, becoming equipped with experiences, letting things go, falling down and getting back up again, being afraid, being courageous, sharing. The most beautiful view is getting to a point where you can look at this as a whole and are able to see it without judgement. That's just what life is meant to be -- composed of complexities. The most important piece, in my opinion, is to remain present for it. For the good parts and bad parts alike. For the few quiet moments you might occasionally reach that view. Acceptance is earned through practice, not a given, and not static. Keep trying.
What does this mean in the context of this email?
Well, my healing has seemed to conjure from some sixth dimensional place. It's been looking like becoming reacquainted with honesty, experiencing reciprocity in communication, and coming to a deep need for clarity. It of course looks like crying, or going to the gym, or journaling, too. Somehow it has evolved into a spatial interrogation of animistic characterizations. At the conclusion of this recent project, I realized that it had also served as a container for me to face some challenging power struggles and dynamics.
I started the year deconstructing outdated narratives, and deconstructing outdated built-in cabinets. On site we name this "selective demolition." We have to decide what stays and what goes. There is always a part where the new will have to join into the old. We don't lose sight of the old, but we also don't hang onto frivolous things. We upgrade when necessary, but save as much existing useful resource as we can.
There's a part early on in the process where the space feels very raw and vulnerable. It's exposed, and sometimes critical functions like lighting, power, or running water, are temporarily shut down. We have to clear space out, evaluate the conditions, identify issues, get down into the nuances, and then go for it. Many of the final details actually begin in this state. It's arguably the most important section of a remodel template. It's most arguably the most important times of our lives, those when we are faced with great change that leave us vulnerable, to see deeper and more clearly into ourselves.
It's in the moment of sweeping the floor for the 17th time that week that I start to shift. To see the greater vision alchemize, to understand that there's some proprioception going on, that I am in relation to this space that is coming alive. And, at the same time that this spatial character is building, I am growing closer to my intuition, working on my voice, feeling a little more grounded, finding routine again, and integrating new values and lessons. Somehow the space just mirrors this process. Or, it's simply my own projection.
Regardless, I maintain that this Primary Suite was positioned as my own exploration into establishing a new personal foundation with the masculine as archetype. Did I take full liberties in crafting the final report narrative biased toward this process? Absolutely.
On to the next.
I'm grateful for support, care, check-ins, friends, health, and for the resources and opportunities to learn and share.
Extending you all my best wishes for peace, connection, and abundance.
With love,
Taylor